sooooooooo.....update!

those 2 songs i wrote...were about a boy....but oddly enough, im not feelin him all that much anymore.
i have, however, had my eye on another guy now for some time...but i dunno...it's kinda fading b/c things aren't really going anywhere...but we'll see.

dolor de la cabeza (working title)

im still not cold
but im shivering again
my heart is so confused
is this what God intends?

i have a case of the spins
caught in this crazy game
a triangle where im at the top
im bound to go insane

show me the way im supposed to go
show me the path im supposed to take
tonight i leave this all in Your hands
please God just show me the way

im getting o so dizzy
i feel the aching in my joints
the street signs spin with the choices
i wonder which way they'll point

im hoping they stop
and show me to the boy
who won't leave my mind
am i being too coy?

show me the way im supposed to go
show me the path im supposed to take
tonight i leave this all in Your hands
please God just show me the way

mind games (working title)

laid my heart out once before.
i dont do that anymore.
im shivering, but not from the cold.
im o so meek, and you're not so old.

desparation drives me here,
or is it the want to be wanted,
or how little my phone is ringing,
or how myspace hates my guts.

it's these lonely nights
with your eyes in my mind
i want your heart to sit
right next to mine
i want my phone to ring
i wanna give it time
i wanna see your face
i just wanna find
you

i wanna spill my guts.
i wanna just stay friends.
i wanna forget you.
i want you to send

me a letter
to make it better
to tell me you are real.

it's these lonely nights
with your eyes in my mind
i want your heart to sit
right next to mine
i want my phone to ring
i wanna give it time
i wanna see your face
i just wanna find
(you)

my mind is playing tricks on me again
who knows we'll be better off in the end
or if, my broken heart, you'll mend
or if you'll ever hear these words i penned

it's these lonely nights
with your eyes in my mind
i want your heart to sit
right next to mine
i want my phone to ring
i wanna give it time
i wanna see your face
i just wanna find
(you)





***

so whatcha think?

these kids are incredible.

so tonight was pretty much the best.
me, arthur, n grace headed across the bay to watch our boys in thoughts of august play a show. afterwards we went to hang out with everyone in the band. we ended up goin to t.g.i.fridays. so we had some food and hung out n whatnot n it was awesome. then, the guys from april cover dropped by. it was cool gettin to talk to them. in both bands, they guys are awesome. they're doing great things with their music n i couldn't be prouder.
so, we wnded up hittin the road a little after midnight.
good times.
pix up on my myspace so go check em out.
=)

paper and plastic

i am in love another band. they are local. the name: thoughts of august. amazing music with an amazing purpose. and they're fun to watch. i havent been disappointed yet, technical difficulties and all. they're numero uno on my friends list on myspace, so check em out.
in other news, new job. good hours, amazing benefits, great people...and fun!
more other news...
-i have a new hangout in foley. it is the ole mug. again, amazing place and people and all that pertains to.
-my friends are still the best, even with flaws. they just make them that much better. =p
-my feet are killing me. nothing warms the heart like a good days work. =)
-we leave for houston thursday for my cousin's wedding, but daddy can't go b/c he has too much going on at work to leave mr. ronnie with the load.
-gimme a squiggly! ahahahahahaha.

oolala

i have an interview at movie gallery coming up. that should be interesting. i would really like to find a data entry job tho, or something along those lines. but o well, movie gallery should hold me over til then.
august's wedding is coming up fast. i can't believe my auggie froggie is getting married! heck, i remember when he was in diapers alongside me like it was yesterday. haha. but i couldn't be happier for him. i haven't met his fiancee, but i hear she's a good person. my favorite (and only), 4 month and 1 day older than me cousin deserves the world. =p
boo is doin good. she found herself a new favorite spot, complete with wodden decorative bird and everything, in our box window thing over the sink. she stays up there all day...til she gets on the fridge and i force her off...then she goes right back up in her window.
but anyway, nothin too much else goin on. except i am very very very very very excited about monday! my arthur is getting back from orlando then! *throws confetti* =) i am most happy. lol.
til then, im out.
get in touch.
<3

so so long

news update:
-i no longer live in foley.
-i no longer am friends with kimmy and chuck.
-i no longer wish to speak to them ever again.
-i have the best friends ever.
-they are retards.
-i need a job better than any i have ever had...ever.
-i want a puppy.
-boo is still gorgeous as ever. =)

aside from all that, grace's boyfriend is in an awesome band. i have much love for them.
my all*star crew now consists of grace, arthur, nadine, and anyone i hang around when im with them. =)
show me love.

woooooooo.

looks like the drama has subsided for a while. i quit my job. yay! bug is home from the hospital. uber-yay of all yays! me n the roomies are quite good. =) yay yay yay yay yay!
me, kimmy, chuck, bug, arthur, brian (our neighbor), and arthur's little sister, went to the pool at arthur's apartment complex today. it was awesome. bug did so good. the water was a little cold for his liking today tho. but he had fun lookin at everyone be the dorks we are. haha.
bug is teething. if you have any advice, pleeeeeeaaaaaase leave it in my comments!!!!!!!!!!!
other than that, leave me comments at random anyway so i have something ELSE to read on the interwebz. =p
<3

zomg

what the hell is up with all this drama in my life lately!? it's insane. it began shortly before the last post, i think, and it has yet to cease. what is up with that?
i've said it before and i'll say it again...
I HATE FAKE PEOPLE.
that should pretty much sum up the latest drama.
also, i hate shit-talkers, especially when they can't back it up. that's just something i thought of that i dont think i've blogged about yet...in all history. lol.

we don't take hits, we write them.

the patron saint of liars and fakes.

my heart is the worst kind of weapon.

i've got a dark alley and a bad idea that says you should shut your mouth (summer song).

champagne for my real friends, real pain for my sham friends.

don't you know who i think i am?

snitches and talkers get stitches and walkers.

i <3 fall out boy. they always know just how i feel. they are the soundtrack of my life.
i have a lot of pet peeves right now...but im not too much at liberty to discuss them at this moment.
just remember: karma's a bitch.

o my.

am so tired. been sick w/ some kinda crud the last few days. barely ate anything. just wanna sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. felt kinda nauseas last night. hope i dont tonight. work at noon tomorrow. hope will get some good sleep tonight..of course, hafta take chuck to work at 7am. meh. o well. im in windows admin class now about to take a test so ttfn. lol. <3

so tired

moving is a bitch. for real. kay. all for now.
<3

zomg! we has wireless to hijack!!!!

so, one of neighbors totally has a wireless router. yay for hijack! i iz at new house. yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!! kay, gonna see how it holds up to WoW now. =p
<3

i think someone's computer is about to splode...

in other news....moving is frickin tiring. got most everything in the house now tho...just gotta get everything put away....good grief. i want a nap...instead im in class. turdie n babyhead arent getting along atm, as should be expected. but babyhead loooooooooooooooooooooves bug! =) the house is so vute. we're gonna have a housewarming party. i would announce when....but we dont has internet right now b/c of budgeting issues. poop. i miss my guildies. haha. already! bleh...g2g...project time. meh.
<3

rum is for drinking, not for burning

w00t. we move into our house tomorrow. yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay! so happy. checked it out on saturday on a whim and looooove it! huzzah! gettin everything finalized tomorrow. o joy, o rapture!

blarg

should be sleepin. gotta meet kimmy n chuck in robertsdale at 8:45am so we can go look at this place we're thinking about renting. blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, so early. and work another 10 hour shift tomorrow...1-11pm.
o, just a fun fact...i got to play supervisor at work from 9-11pm tonight. it was fun. =)
kay, may go WoW to kill some time or somethin.
keep li/oving.

it's not gossip if it's the truth

been gone this year more days than i have been home
trading friends for trips to the coast
this hotel room feels more like a tomb

***

hand over my heart, gun to my head
i swear to God im through with this
i am the worst liar i know

***

so which is it?
the boy who writes the songs or the boy who's in them?
who's the girl? is it truth?
or is he writing fiction?

***

it's not gossip if it's the truth
im tired of always songs for you to slit your wrists to

***

i <3 fall out boy more than i could ever put into words.
they always know how im feeling.

immaturity is for the birds

im tired of being broke. i think about finding a new job, but so much goes along with that. it's just not feasible. i have my insurance through work, a raise in april, potential for growth within the company... but there are a few certain people that i cannot stand at all. you know, the kind of people you wake up and dread knowing you'll see them that day and automatically get depressed. i just can't stand rude people. if i don't like you, im not going to pretend i do (because i ahte fakes more than anything), but im not gonna be rude to you, especially if i have to see you b/c we work together. if you're reading this, just stay out of my way. and everyone knows the messiest people are the ones everyone talks about.

ugh...

apartment hunting is very tiresome...especially when you have to move in in 2 or 3 weeks and you just started looking today. =S

w00t.

summer is here! me n tabitha n her girls went out to the beach this morning. it was awesome. im a tid bit burned. just a little. im in the suckiest class of my semester. meh.

<3

i am the worst liar i know...

so i have this situation going on....i get nervous about it...in a dorky way. lol. im not sure my course of action, ya know. definitely dunno what the outcome is gonna be like...definitely not.

im lookin a hot mess

freekin allergies.
b/c of my seasonal allergies, i have recently been seen with a box of vicks-scented tissues, comfy clothes, and sunglasses on indoors. the light is my enemy...and uncomfortable clothes. i wish i woulda chosen pajama pants to wear to class tonight....that woulda been amazing. im sore everywhere. my eyes r puffy. i can't breathe. i feel like dookie. i could definitely use a full-body masssge right about now. hopefully after this storm moves through tonight i'll be good. who knows...we'll see.

zomg excel

i hate it so, yet i love it at the same time....i only hate it b/c of tedious projects i am forced by work to do with it. yet, i love it b/c it is an amazing spreadsheet program. where have you been all my life? you've been there for me when i had hours of engineering homework to do, when i was making a schedule for me and nadine to see when we had time to work out, and you were even there today when i got bored in my word/excel class with all your amazingness that kept me from going insane with the beginner-level stuff we were being taught. yes, excel, i love you. never leave me! kay?

music makes me get high...

...we're getting _down on the floor.




me n the gang went out to atlantis last night. it was pretty fun...til we had to pee.
*shudders*


**ADVISORY**


THIS STORY IS EXTREMELY DISGUSTING AND NOT FOR THE FEINT OF HEART.


now that that's out of the way, settle in and prepare for a most gruesome story.
so, we make our way to the bathroom, me, tabitha, n brittany. we get close and a scented wave of shit, vomit, and piss fills our nasal cavities. *gags* we get in the door and something drips on us. we figure it's water and continue on our merry journey. we go to the last stall, which is the cleanest. the toilet seat is soaking wet, like pools of standing.....liquid. so tabitha goes first, assuming the position every girl has learned if she has ever used a public restroom. i check the stall next to the one she was in b/c i was about to burst. i push the door open with the tip of my thumb, which surely gets infected with every std known to man immediately. i peek in and low and behold, guess what i find on the floor. a freaking turd! not just one, actually...there were numerous turds having a little turd party, just chillin on the floor. soooooooo friggin gross. so then brittany goes, then me. we go to wash our hands and everything and try not to touch anything as we exit the bathroom. as we're walking out, we get dripped on again...tabitha n brittany get dripped on on their head, and it dripped on my arm and part of my shirt sleeve, which was lace so it didn't show or anything. we get back to where our group was hangin out and herbie, or someone, says they smell puke. yes, puke. i smell my sleeve where the ceiling liquid had dripped on my arm and about gagged. tab n britt smelled their hair too, n sure enough, we were the source of the stench. i was so thoroughly grossed out i coulda bathed in a vat of germ-x, lysol, clorox, and dial soap right then and there.


**END OF DISGUSTING STORY**


aside from that gruesomeness, the club was fun...played some pretty good music. i went straight to bed when i got home...i was so tired.


anyway, im off the World of Warcraft.
<3

zomg....this is hilarious

23

beat that punk!

awwwwwwwwww

happy <3 day!!!

so, in celebration of less-than-three day, i bring you some of the websites i have been addicted to lately.

www.friendsorenemies.com
www.meelikey.com
www.icanhascheezburger.com
http://granades.com/2007/05/02/loltrek/
www.facebook.com
www.myspace.com
www.ihasahotdog.com
www.worldofwarcraft.com
www.saynotocrack.com

so go check em out and track me down if it has a user interface.

meet bug

he is the cutest little thing i've ever seen. i love him more than i've ever loved anyone else. i can't wait to be there for him growing up, like any good godmother would.

ima friggin godmother!!!!!!!!

little jathen alexzander michael raymer was born at 6:50pm on Wednesday, February 6, 2008. he weigned 6 lbs 15.5 oz and measured 19.5 inches long.
he is the cutest little thing i have ever seen. i would have posted sooner, but i went w/ kimmy n chuck to the horse-pistol around 4am on wednesday. i only left 5 times. the first was to run back the house to get a bag they had left. the second time was to go to BRU word/excel class from 1-3pm. the third was about an hour after jaybug arrived to get mama and papa bear krystals. the 4th was at 11am this morning to get ready and go to the employee meeting at phoenix x. and the 5th was to come here to my networking security class. it broke my heart to pieces when i had to leave to come here. i held him and talked to him for a few minutes and gave him more kissies than anyone would ever believe. he is defintely the new love of my life. he will be quite hard to replace.
which brings me toooooooooooo...
I MADE AN 80 ON MY NETWORKING SECURITY EXAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
w00t.
and now, i am hungry. meh....more class.
i miss my little jaybug!!!!!!!!!!
and now, more class.
toodles!
-aunt aimee
(eeeehehehehehehehe!!!!)

good golly gosh jim

i made a website.
raWr.
www.loveitorloatheit.webs.com

can i borrow have, like, $1200???

i found an apartment finally...but i think i'll need a raise or a second job in order to get it. any donations?

good grief

my windows admin class is freeeezing...again.
kimmy's doc doc said she's about 2 weeks away from giving birth. o boy o boy o boy.
so excited.
new tat is doin well. startin to scab over n itch like fire. i put a whole heap of lotion on it a minute ago. aaaaah. relief.
so i appear to be getting skinnier. huzzah! angie stopped me in the hall at work yesterday and was like 'why are you so skinny? you make me feel bad.' lol. so even though weight is around the same, im toning up and burning the fat. huzzah!
hmm...what else shall i write about......
work still sucks. soooo much drama...as always. been working on the dayshift a little bit because of classes...i could very well do without it...but i should have a little over 40 hours on this week's paycheck, even though i left about 4 or 5 hours early friday night to go get tatted. w00t. the only thing that saved my butt was the insurance meeting monday and yesterday when i went back and worked afer my class.
got my nails done short this time in anticipation of the baby...still square, but rounded off edges...definitely need a new set next time i go.
other than that, not too much else goin on...at least that i can think of.
to quote an amazing man...
keep li/oving.
<3

motherfucker...

fuck myspace and fuck their IM. im pretty sure it's the reason i have fucking spyware on my comp. im pissed. spysweeper already found somethin n i've been clear for MONTHS! grrrrrrr. in other news, got a new tat. it's shown above. it's on my right leg, on the side, about 3 or 4 inches below my knee. very awesome...will show a pic from further out later. k, ima go be pissed about my comp some more.
damn vista.

boredom overwhelms me, even tho i have a million things to do...

so im sitting here scanning some pix n putting em on myspace for keshia...i have some projects n stuff to do for my networking security class too...and laundry...and lord knows how many other things i need to do....but i feel really bored...
maybe im sleepy...maybe...
either way, ima finish scanning these pix for keshia...
someone leave a comment...my journal is way too pure.

call me corny, but...

i think country is the true soul music.
i guess you'd have to be inside my brain to get it...

life is a cabaret...

i just watched "cabaret" for the first time ever. pretty good...but it's one of those movies that made me kinda sit here for a minute like "heh......life kinda blows..." it's scary when you see portions of your life portrayed in older movies you've never seen before...you know what i mean? either way tho, it was well made with great music...and i love the way they shot it, with the cabaret scenes coinciding with the events in the character's lives, further proof that "life is a cabaret." (did u see what i did there? lawlz.)
in other news, me n nadine worked out after our classes. im so happy that im losing weight...it seems each day another pound has dropped, lately. =) so with about 8 down, that's just another........92 to go. =o maybe i'll be bikini-approved by this summer. =p
so, yea...i don't know what else to say...more stuff goin on, but nothin i feel like typing out atm. gonna go chat with guildies on WoW i spose.
later, lovers.

new meaning of frozen computer...

so i just got to my windows admin class and it is freeeeeezing in here. dear lord.
...i didn't tan today, and that makes me sad. instead i went to fairhope to see my parents n lil sis before i headed to bay minette. im considering going out to my car and grabbing my second jacket b/c the thermostat in here must be set to 52...wtf!? it's at 78! it must be a typo. -.-
well, im gonna fart around and do w/e til class starts.
<3

be proud!

we had random drug testing at work yesterday...well, random as in, every single employee was randomly selected to do one. lol. i passed mine with flying colors. =) but, mine was wonky...i had to use the men's room b/c someone was in the women's doin their's...and then larry, head honcho of security, came in and read mine. he was jokin the whole time, but i was like, "o gee, this old man is so holdin a cup of my pee." it was pretty funny tho. i got some overtime at work yesterday too. went back after class and had to do tuesday reports b/c noone was there to do them...i got about a third done. and i had a snowbird who had been misinformed not once earlier that day, but twice...that opened up a whole can of worms and becky was supposed to call her today to maybe work with her on some things...or at least further try to convince her of our true policies.
me n nadine worked out for an hour n a half last night...it was really good. we were sposeta work out some more today before our classes, but i can't get a hold of her.
=(
im gonna stop at planet beach in foley n tan before i go to class...haven't tanned in about a week...and im getting pale so boo.
tonight i have windows admin class. w00t. im also gonna try to get some of my books today too. windows admin is $180, networking security is $90, and psychology is $70....all of those are rough figures, of course.
so...im gonna go waste some more time...maybe i'll go play in the rain that has been pouring since i fell asleep last night.
huzzah for islands!

watch me unravel

im getting excited and nervous and worried and tired and full of energy and everything else! kimmy is gonna pop out my godson sometime soon.
she went into nesting mode a couple days ago.
i can't wait til i get that call...
"aimee! get you're ass to the hospital! bring me a cigarette and some tongs, we're gettin this thing outta me!"
lol. i love my best friend.
i owe everything to her really.
she's the reason i came out of my shell in high school.
she's the reason i found fall out boy.
she got me into writing for pleasure, not just for school and everything.
if it weren't for her, i can't imagine where i'd be today.
more recently, she's taught what caring so much for someone else is like.
i cannot wait til this little bundle of joy arrives...but i've been so worried for kimmy n the baby this whole time. i watch too many medical shows.
hopefully little jathen will be the healthiest baby the hospital's ever seen.
that's all i could ever ask for.
little j will be my buddy, i've already decided. =p
if you get a frantic call or text from me, you'll know what's going on.
"omgwtfbbq baby!"
kay...hafta grab a quick shower n head to work.
<3

simple livin is a bitch, but, damn, i do it well

so....im definitely lovin "the big bang theory" on cbs. that mug needs to come out on dvd asap.
so, i've been listening to "the papercut chronicles" by gym class heroes the last few days nonstop in my car. that album is insanely incredible. i recommend that everyone go get it immediately.
and now some lyrics frm the aforementioned album:


I lead a crocodile mile lifestyle, I run and slide
But when it's time to collide with the bump, I always bail
Cause I'm not ready for that dive or that silly nine to five
Solidified career option, a hop skip and a leap
away from rock star, and not too far away from fillin pop's shoes
The idyllic hard workin type of calloused hands
Complete with wife, kids, dog, house, and picket fence, that's nonsense
I'm convinced I'm built for better things
And won't settle for the empty smile that cheddar brings
It seems like I'm workin hard simply cause it's what they say I have to do
You graduate and then you either get a job, or you go to school
12 years wasn't enough?
That's more than half of my life spent tryin to make the world accept me
Plus I've got the papers saying that I made it through
Now I'm working 2 jobs, 3 with music and you don't respect me?
Fuck it I'll retire now, you'll work until you're 62

name explanation

for anyone wondering, i play world of warcraft. w00t.
pwn=own.
pwnstar.
get it?
haha.
so hit me up on google talk as xxxpwnstarxxx or aim as WoWpwnstarxXx.
<3

more about me

my name is aimee. i live in gulf shores, al. i have a cat named babyhead. she is the love of my life. (that's her peepin through the o so pimp vertical blinds one night.) she is currently laying in my lap. it makes me so happy to be loved.

i attend faulkner state community college. i am majoring in computer technology, with a focus on becoming an operations specialist. i am currently taking psychology, windows admin, and networking technology (pretty much hacking 101).

i work at brett/robinson vacation rentals. my job title is "reservationist," but many times i get pulled from the phone to assist the front desk and help my fellow reservationists with assorted projects. i work with a phone and a computer all day. it's tedious and repetitive usually, but you get the occasional interesting call. currently, our "snowbirds" (older guests who come down from up north to escape harsh winters) are rebooking their condominiums for the 2008-2009 season. many come to the front desk at the building i work at on hwy 59. yesterday, i went up front and rebooked 2 snowbirds face-to-face. it breaks the monotony a little bit.

i am currently seeking an apartment and a roommate. if you like cats and wouldn't mind a roommate who is a night owl, let me know.

aside from school and work, i enjoy having fun. (yea, i so couldn't think of an eloquent way to phrase that...10 hour workday today.) im 20 years old, born and raised in alabama, not a hardcore hick. music is my life. i listen to everything under the sun. if you've seen "bastards of young," you know what my favorite style of music is. my absolute favorite band is fall out boy. not only are the songs amazing instrumentally, the lyrics blow me away every time i listen to them...and i started listening to them in 2004. since i began listening to fall out boy, my writing style has improved dramatically. yes, i write songs. i also enjoy writing poems, short stories, and even term papers. i have a wild love affair going with the english language.

that's a pretty good summation of me. and now, a sampling of my writings....just a little something that i like to think describes me. enjoy!

id rather be remembered for the ink i put to paper than the things i did to save the world. but that's just me, the quiet kid just outside the middle of the room. i want to be seen, but not too much.

well...

figured i'd be cool like everyone else...
and see google's answer to blogging...pretty nice and user-friendly......so far.
more later.

<3